i know the title is not fit with what i want to tell here
i started my short semester few weeks ago . . and all the hopes and expectations , crushed at the first class . . so sad
and my laptop having problem till now which equal to stress for me
i put leader in the title because i became (once again) became group leader . . .
and i hate it
i just can't understand my class mate mind set . . they always stay with their own group doesn't want to share and mix around . . i feel i am not one of them
and me like usual will wait . . until somebody ask me to join their group and again as usual i'll have not-equal-to-my-expectation member but i try my best . . i had experience before. . . lot of experiences
seems the problem will end there but not, the class.. taught using malay language . . and . . it soooo irritating . . for me and my group member
we only have 4 week and my group spend 1 week only to understand the requirement . . .
sighh . . and no one understand . . i mean . . if the standard of understanding is 80% then average my member = 50%
sighhhhh
and today i just want to cried or yelled because i couldn't do anything for my member
we had visited computer and data center of my university but they gave information using malay language again . . . . .
it hurt my feeling because my member couldn't understand malay language . . but . . i couldn't do anything. and the worst part . . my lecture just smile . . . just smile . . .
i just hate the class now . . . and lost my direction and motivation to continue with all of this burden . . . maybe if me, myself, i can do it . . but it's not like that how life work
as a leader i should overcome these problem and bring the whole team together . . because the success of a leader can be measure by seeing the success of it's team. it's not a personal . . individual, it's a team, a family, community . . . .
