Instead.. i smile as big as i can and think with my evil-heartless-mind
A manifesto made me confuse... how to answer it . . . and that manifesto... force me to ask myself again and again. I finished it by the way.
Think the problem end there.. no dear :D
3 times.. someone who asked for my help, which i willing to help, didn't appear :D
Someone also ruined my day. Made newsletter design is part of my extra job right now.
I emphasize that i am never that good to prepare the content.. so this "someone" prepared it for me.. how nice :)
I asked from the newsletter team.. when we can sit together and do it? nobody answered.. seem they are busy with coming exam, it is fine.
last nite.. that "someone" asked me to do finalize the design, i came out with the design and done 40% of the content placement and do another 40% in front of "someone".
It started with good and fake understanding that "someone" think can hide it from me, I just smile.. and act guilty (i was guilty ). Unfortunately "someone" didn't prepare enough content for me . . and i was scared about due date of my manifesto . . and what "someone" did is "dating and studying" whoo hoooo . . . . . it was nice.
Someone decided to leave me with the job alone, hey . . i need your help here . . it was ok.. since i thought it will only take 5 minutes... 30 minutes.. "someone" haven't came back yet. I wrote my apologize letter and went away to do my own stuffs. "someone" just realize i went away around another 30 minutes :)
Now i writing this post... few minutes past from the time "someone" came and asked the newsletter. . . uh oh . . . ok. . . i done another 10% just a few second :D then while i doing my stuffs "someone" asked me "what did i learn from a team". I gave "someone" my secret way to avoid heartless-answer that usually will come out from my mouth because of "someone" attitude. In the end "someone" asked me "if you don't learn any and don't have idea what you had learn, why you still stay in the team ?" >> ahhh this question was something i guessed from the first time. "Someone" never trust me.. never like me.. never be able to control me... and always feels intimidate by all of the things with my taste on it :)
Now "someone" talking with my "fairy-good-mother" which i can sense they are talking with me. Should i cry or get angry and loose my control of my own emotion.. nahhh...
That is something only happened in my past... now i just smile as big as i can :D
With evil-heartless-mind to give "someone" finish-movement-final-combo-attact :D
