I always believe I never walk alone because i can still see my friends in the distance yet the same path. Today this idealistic imagination that i treasure being crushed. Those people who walk in the same way with me is just some kind of stranger.
Life is cruel, you can always laugh together but most of the time you will cry alone.
I am not trying to be emo now. It happened. It just let me know better about myself and about people around me. They might not push me down but most of them won't pull me up either.
I remember faruq told me
"do not ever think someone else is same like you"Don't ever think when someone fall down and you help them they will help you by the time you fall. Don't expect that, never. It doesn't mean that you should not trust someone. It simply mean, we need to be strong enough to support ourself.
Well . . . I can't say "it will be different if". Keeping "if" as reasoning for failure is a biggest mistake. "What if . .", "If only I . .", past can't be change the only one is future.
Hatta ever said (or as what i perceive from his book)
"if is only a reason for a person not to accept reality. it is a chain for a human to their past, it won't bring future. leave it be and move forward. if is the word that chained person in the euphoria of the glory from having imaginary past"
Back to reality I arrange myself to be strong enough to force my way forward and strong enough to stand on my own feet and embrace the future
With bright wide smile on my face :)
"life is like playing angry bird, you get nothing if you win, but there is always some pigs laugh at you when you lost" - from someone/somewhere
ciaosz !!
