Hi guys, it might be late but i still want to say Happy Eid Mubarak, Selamat Harai Raya Idul Fitri, Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri :)
Yups, i went back to my hometown where i spent most of my time in my only room, rain . . as usual is a good reasons not to do anything. Instead of let myself rotten by doing nothing i thought about thousands of things. Remember that i join an organization in my university. I realize - from a depth thinking under my blanket - that it is not relevant for me anymore. I want to learn other skills, i moved from person with passion towards IT to a person who needed to understand management, where i actually unable to be as free as what i want.
It might be a problem with responsibilities. However the more i think about it, the more i realize i am not fit there.
There were several events happened last few weeks. Starting with a better life in my home, thanks for made me realize and made me smile, it wasn't for long tough - i came back to my original life here. What i mean here is that i actually really have a double life, one in my home and one is here, in my university. I didn't realize the differences before but now, i know.
Second events happen was about my high schools' teacher. He had went back to where all of us belong to, where all of us will be go back. It didn't affect me that time, as far as i realize, there was nothing different with my life when i heard it. I recalled back the day i went to my high school, attending the reunion. I met him, Mr Fairusdi, he was still the same person, he was kind, and act like older brother for all of us. He asked me about my relationship with my old girlfriend. Ahh . . . the time will never roll back.
Third was my ignorance and fear. Since i added extra holidays by myself when i went back to my university i fear about the test that will come. I felt i never learn anything, not a single information about my subject stayed in my head. It seems everything was evaporated, gone because of the holiday fever. I decided to locked myself in my room, try to study but in the end, nothing was changed. I must take over my fear and let myself bare the consequences.
Forth, uhmm it suppose to be the third i am not sure. This is related with the 1st event, where i realize what i should do in my organization. It made some people mad but this is what i have, this is the things that make me passionate about it and i will never let anyone to hold my step. This time i will do what i like and do what i should do, this time i don't want to care about other people opinions. Time had proven my theory, although i unable to communicate my ideas very well to others and my ideas seems suck from other people opinion, my ideas weren't wrong at all.
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Okay, thus are some of my opinion and recap on what happened last few weeks. Today i sit on my classroom, writing this blog, think on what i should do later on, what i should write in this blog. My friend - the wide forehead, ehmm :) ( i don't think i should named him like that anymore :P ) is having a blog, yeahhh . . . awesome. He started few weeks ago, every post is limited to 60words ( it seems lime that ) because there is no "read more" navigation. I met him few days back and he was really put an effort on fill in his blog, i mean he was try to read some article on the net, find sophisticated words or any information that he think suitable and align with himself then write it on his blog - check it out
Hmm . . i must work harder then :)
Till the next time, see ya folks
