the real title is
"a burden i shouldn't bare"
yudi, my friend, ever told me something
"a thing that i hate is i must bare a burden, a shame, a problem that is not suppose to be my problem, because it's not my problem and it's not started by me and i do nothing bout it " ~jinyu
today i understand completely
what he said... i ever understand what he said before, quite long time
but it was in different time, experience, and situation
this noon i realized that...
someone made me bare it problem..
it was not my problem at all
it wasn't my fault..
i did nothing...
but the problem, still i must bare
and there someone who still couldn't understand
......
leave me alone....
......
need three more projects and assignments...
hmmm...
i could kill myself....
