yups.. very very very extremely tired..
tired of almost everything.. (life maybe?? huh..)
actually i don't want this blog just being my virtual diary..
i also don't like to complain, grumble, mumble.. write my depressed feeling..
my stupid confessions...
but this is what happened to me..
tired of my daily life.. (not bored just tired..)
tired of talking and writing using "not-my-own-language"
tired of thinking my future, my present, my past..
tired of thinking my mark..
tired of thinking how to earn money..
tired of counting the money because the instability of world economic
specially for my "don't-know-to-hate-or-to-love" country..
tired of being so cruel to my self..
tired of having no someone-called-real friends..
tired of remember..
tired of being alone with only my imaginations..
tired of being alone as a human being..
tired of walking everyday to my faculty..
tired of eat not-really-delicious food..
tired... i try to make it more fun..
to forget the pain that i feel..
i really don't like to look depress like this..
but who else will know and understand my feeling if i don't tell any??
i suddenly.. step by step.. piece by piece.. turn back..
turn back to old time..
the day that i become so powerful with no one by my side..
with just darkness that keep my heart beat...
with cold smile hanging on my death face..
